Confusion? Content? What is THIS?!

So lately I've been going through the motions. I'm not really here today.. some where in between fully conscious and half asleep. I'm not sure how to explain it.

It's been over two weeks and Rob hasn't found a job yet. Tomorrow I'm going to take him to Family Services so he can apply for unemployment and food stamps. Our rent is going to be late because we need to pay the utilities first. I've been looking through the house for things worth selling and I'm contemplating a trip to the pawn shop tomorrow for some quick cash. Not that we really have much worth pawning.. but a few things. My CD player should get us something at least.

Labor Day sucks. I hate not getting my mail. Getting mail is the highlight of my day sometimes... sad. True.

This might be TMI for some of you but this is my journal: I started my period last week. I'm so thankful! Rob and I were going to try for #2 so I stopped my birth control. Well, I stopped for that and also because many professionals don't recommend being on the same bc for more than 2 years. It took almost 6 months for my period to return and I was starting to get worried, but now I can at least put that out of my mind. :)

My sister has been at my mom's for the past week. She went back with her after our trip to KS for Home Interiors' Fall Rally (which was a blast!). My sister got into a fight with her hubby right after she got here. Apparently one of the tifs they had was about her not spending "quality time" with his parents, both of whom live over 2 hours away from us. So she went back to my mom's so she could spend a few days with her hubby's dad and then with his mom.

It's been nice with her out of the house. Not that we got much alone time here. Rob's friend Nick ended up staying the weekend... AGAIN. It's getting really tired, but Nick's car is getting fixed so it won't be happening anymore. Then today we ended up babysitting for another one of Rob's friends who didn't ask us until last night around 8 p.m. Nice. I feel like boarding my windows and parking our van in the backyard so no one knows we're home.

I started school last week, which wasn't bad. Especially with this three day weekend. I'm not going to like my Teaching Math class very much. My professor reminds me of Rachael Ray on a sugar high. It's beyond annoying. My Pysch professor reminds me of a very happy mouse. She's the kind of wallflower girl from high school who always had her nose in a book. I actually like my Government professor. We spent most of our second day in class discussing the Democratic Convention, which was refreshing. The other two professors are Education professors I've had numerous times over the past two years... nothing new there. I doubt I will be involved in any extracurricular activities this semester besides The Education Association, which is kind of involuntary due to the fact that I'm an Education major. You just kind of get sucked into it whether you want to be or not.

Jesse has been surprisingly talkative lately. He's saying all kinds of new words. Here's a quick list of what he can say so far (he's 24 months):

1. Mama
2. Dada
3. Bye
4. Kitty
5. Night-Night
6. Door
7. Shoe
8. Cup
9. Book
10. No
11. Bath
12. Woof woof (for "puppy"
13. Movie
14. Pretty
15. Yucky or Icky
    

That's what I can think of off the top of my head and it's pretty good for his age. The list was about half that only a few months ago. I'm really proud of him. Of course, he understands more words than he can say and he gets extremely frustrated when we don't understand what he's trying to tell us. Poor thing.

I guess I better finish with what I was trying to say at the beginning of this. Even though things are financially bad for us, my love life (sexually and emotionally) is very prosperous. I feel kind of unbalanced. It's strange.